I created my website in the summer of 2014, I had only been teaching for around 1 year and had just founded my business, MARAM Yoga LLC to have a legit platform to sell the malas that I make with my mom.
As time went on, I started to neglect this part of my life as I had plenty of other things that I wanted or needed to do.
However, I have some big changes coming up in my life in the next several months and the idea of having an online platform is becoming more and more necessary.
It's been an interesting process updating my website so it's relevant. From my blog posts, to my pictures to my malas - everything has changed so much. I mean, of course it has, it's been almost over 2 1/2 years! But the funny thing about change is it doesn't always feel so dramatic because we are LIVING it! The subtle shifts that occur from moment to moment, day to day or even month to month don't always feel that significant. But when you have the opportunity to literally see the difference that has been created over years of time, the change is intense and obvious.
Like many people, my natural self dialogue isn't very pretty. I see the worst in myself before I see the best. When I see pictures of myself from months or years ago, I always see what's better in that body than where I am now. But the funny thing is, I was doing the same thing when I took the picture I am now romanticizing in my head.
Yes, I am a yoga teacher who still has self doubt, self judgement and sometimes a lack of self love. But that's why I am a yoga teacher, that's why I am a yoga student, because yoga is a PRACTICE. We are never done working through these natural tendencies that we suffer from, in fact, we just become more aware of them. Then, we can choose to take action and redirect our minds our hearts into a more nurturing space if needed.
So, as I write this, I remind myself: you are perfect and whole exactly who you are and as you are right now.